Awakened Ave
I want to be
a light,
not a megaphone.
Real stories. Raw thoughts. A life lived differently, shared openly, not as instruction, but as example.
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Awakened Ave
Real stories. Raw thoughts. A life lived differently, shared openly, not as instruction, but as example.
Read the Story
About
Most people spend their lives becoming someone.
I did too. For a long time I was very good at it.
Then it all fell apart, and in the falling apart, I found something I'd been chasing my entire life without knowing it.
I'm not a teacher. I don't have a method. What I have is a life that looks completely different than it once did, and a habit of sharing it openly, the parts that worked and the ones that didn't.
Awakened Ave is where that happens. Videos, writing, and whatever comes next.
If something here feels familiar, you're in the right place.
Coming Soon
One Man's Collapse into Nobody, A Memoir
A man spends his entire life becoming someone, only to discover that every identity he built was another prison.
This is an honest account of what remains when there is nothing left to hold onto.
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From the Community
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Writing
Poetry
Life is theatre, a cyclical play, a meaningless march, an endless parade. Vain procession of things to attain, there has to be more to this hopeless charade...
Poetry
It isn't a mountain. It isn't a place. It's not a person wide. It occupies no space...
Poetry
I don't know what to do. I don't know who to be. I don't know how to stand tall. I don't know how to be the tree...
Poetry
Billions of people from all walks of life, each making choices and demanding the right. The right to be seen as unique, as one, then position ourselves as different to none...
Poetry
I feel you. I hear you. I know that you care. But I'm too damn afraid to put myself out there...
Contact
Whether you're on the trail, in recovery, or just trying to figure out what's next, feel free to reach out.
Email: howard@awakenedave.com